By: Beth Fontana
Today I was absolutely amazed at what God does in my life through these girls. There is one young lady I have met with on and off for over a year. The first time I met with her I was scared. I honestly felt like I was sitting across from someone who was going to pounce on me at any minute. I remember asking her what her hopes and dreams were and she said, “Nothing legal!” I am going to admit that I really had no real hope for her.
Throughout my time with her we have talked about God and her apprehension of ever believing in a God that would allow so much suffering. Four weeks ago she told me she was done believing there was a God, He certainly didn’t care about her or anybody she cared about. You see she has been praying for a woman who is a believer on staff at the JDC. She prayed that her husband would get out of the hospital and go home. Instead her husband died. Kristi, was so angry that God would allow this to happen to such a faithful woman of God.
Kristi was so angry. In fact she said to me that she didn’t want me to pray. I just sat with her and listened to her anger. It was hard, but it was her reality. I am learning I don’t need to defend God. He’s really good at doing that Himself.
Today when Kristi came in I was really excited to see her. I had not seen her in about a month because she got into an altercation with another girl. She was then sent to the hospital for a psychiatric evaluation. She finally was allowed to see me. As she sat down I could see something was different. I asked her how she was doing and she blew me away…
Kristi said, ” I asked Jesus into my life.” I said, “Wow, how did you come to that decision?” She said, “I have done it before, but I really didn’t mean it. This time I meant it and I can really feel Him.” I grabbed her hands and said, “Kristi, we are sisters and that will never change.” We both laughed. I asked what changed. She told me that the staff member who lost her husband told her she will never give up on God or how God will use her in the lives of others. Kristi said, “That hit me and I knew she was right.”
I hear Jesus saying to me, ….”With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.” Mark 10:27
Jesus is always right!!!
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